A few weeks ago I subtly revealed here on the blog, Twitter and Instagram that I am happily pregnant with my second child. I didn't want to do a huge reveal as I did for my first pregnancy with Alfie. It is different this time around. I shared my first pregnancy with my older sister who was due a month or so before me. Don't get me wrong it was absolutely lovely to share my pregnancy with my sister but I quite like going on this journey on my own(with Josh and Alfie obviously!).
I have explained to Alfie that there is a baby inside mummys tummy and of course as a 2 year old he doesn't quite understand yet. He does acknowledge there is a baby in there as he has a tendency to kiss my belly and say baby. It is so adorable, it's like he's trying to bond with the baby already. He will make such a wonderful big brother.
Ever since I found out about this pregnancy I haven't felt entirely myself which is to be expected, I've been ill with the stomach bug, I've had the common cold several times and morning sickness that I hoped would never resurface. I literally feel drained of my energy. I'm pretty much feeling sorry for myself to say the least, although the morning sickness seems to have subsided, for now.
Anyway putting that aside I'm 18 weeks and 1 day today, in my second trimester and nearly halfway through my pregnancy journey. Despite the fact I've had my down days I feel like from today onwards it can only get better. As of a few days ago I felt the baby move for the first time. It was a beautiful fluttery feeling, almost like butterflies in my tummy. I have missed that feeling ever since Alfie was born two years ago. I can't wait until the movements become stronger, although I'm not too excited when he/she gets bigger and decides that my ribs are a comfy place to stay.
I also seem to have developed a cute, delicate bump already. Some say that you show early after your first baby. I guess that may possibly be true in my situation. I had my first scan and consultant appointment a few weeks ago which seemed to go well, although the sonographer insisted I walk up and down three stairwells to get the baby moving around more so they could take a good measurement of their head. I did get some strange looks, haha.
I also recently visited my midwife for the second time. We heard the babys heart beating away for the first time which was like music to my ears. It's so reassuring to hear that the baby is healthy and well. I also discussed my concerns with my fainting episodes which seems to be down to low blood pressure. I can't seem to stand up in one place for too long as I start feeling quite dizzy and feel the need to sit down. It's nothing to seriously worry about as it was the same during my first pregnancy and I was told that my blood pressure should increase as I get further along. Fingers crossed that that's the case.
I am so excited to reach my 20 week milestone soon, purely because I am going to be halfway there and it's the big gender reveal! I am super excited and I have been pretty much talking about it with anyone that is happy to. I really hope little boo doesn't keep his/her legs closed.
I originally asked Josh if he would surprise me with the gender on my birthday at the end of February but then we decided against it as he seriously couldn't keep a secret for 10 minutes, let alone 3 weeks(we find out on the 9th February). I will certainly be heading for the shops if we find out, although the good thing is that I kept all of Alfies clothes from newborn upwards so I will have plenty if this baby is a boy. I like to think ahead! Why get rid of clothes if you want another in the future?
I shall continue to keep you updated along the way, only 22 weeks to go! It feels so near yet so far.